Ahhh internet's shutting off. I gotta be quick. GOD I can't wait to be in college. I am SO SICK of being a high school student here, at this damn place. Arghhh can't even tell you how sick of it I am. My mom and I were talking, and she actually was like 'well I'd rather not cuz you're a high school student'. In my mind I was like 'WHOA BACK UPPPPP. Are you serious?!' I'm NINETEEN next month. What is the DEAL? Most of my friends back home are already in college.. some of them are already working. Geeeeeeeeez.
I'm a tad ADD tonight. Can't help myself.
Ahhhh my collarbone hurts. I know whose fault that is.
There's a track meet tomorrow. I really hope we have a remote chance of whipping L'ville's ass. That would definitely make all that managerial duties worth it. I need to keep working out... I need to call Karen. I need to make sure I have all that stuff for the visa done soon!
God, am I excited for that trip.
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Current mood: Taking life easy for once.
Current song: Land Down Under - Men At Work (SO classic.)
Current quote: "True, you have no equilibrium, but everyone has one flaw."
He is the most adorable thing. I don't think you understand. I am mad about him. Hahahaha. God. Let's continue this post tomorrow. PUBLISH POST BEFORE THE INTERNET SHUTS OFF!!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Friday, April 24, 2009
the power of now.
So much has happened in the past month. I can't believe it, actually. I decided I'm going to Europe over the summer, I sent in my deposit for Vassar, and I fell in love. Life is good for now. Kind of.
I'm just counting down the 29 (maybe 28?) days till I graduate. I need to just get out of here... it's too much to take anymore. Watch me get kicked out of the school for something absolutely stupid... by this point in the year, I'm usually walking on eggshells, desperately trying to get by the rules which are just suffocating me. God. I wish I was in college already.
I hope this entire New York situation works out. It's stressing me out...more than I'd like to admit.
I'm stressing out about my grades this list... I seriously hope they're not gonna plunge downhill drastically. If I don't get into Vassar, life will NOT be good. I will definitely develop manic depression or something. Gotta keep myself motivated!! I hope they get my deposit by the end of today...
So... looks like there's a lot of partying and traveling that's gonna happen this summer. Europe, then Jalynn's coming... and then Phuket, and now possibly Bali. It'll be nice. I miss home so much... I'm so sick of Pennsylvania. So tired of this environment.
The NYSE trip was waaaaaaaay awesome. I want to be one of those people working there. That would make my LIFE. I want to be a workaholic, with a career so intense that I don't have time to go to the bathroom during work hours, that I don't have dinner till 2am. Hahahaha it sounds crazy, but I really think I will thrive in that sort of environment. As long as I don't lose my peace of mind though, you know? Talking to the Hill alumni who're involved in finance was a real eye-opener. Gotta travel, and go for my passions in life, before I end up stuck with a job. Your first job's usually not gonna be the one you'll end up doing for the rest of your life. Keep working at it, and don't feel like just because you're the "gopher", you're not contributing at all. $500 million deals are put together by the "gophers". Not only that, the degree you get from college really isn't going to contribute to your job: in the business world, you learn things on the fly. It's awesome. I love that...because I think that once I expose myself and put myself out there, I'll pick things up a lot more quickly.
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Current mood: trust me.
Current song: Final Distance - 宇多田光
Current quote: "You're just confusing yourself."
I read Zufar's blog post to my mom. God...why are people just so inconsiderate? So close-minded? So cruel and brutal, blinded by their beliefs? How far away are those people from Brahman? Is there any possible way to bring them back?
The power of now is all there is. I hope he doesn't retaliate, because no violence brings inner peace. I just want him to be happy.
I'm just counting down the 29 (maybe 28?) days till I graduate. I need to just get out of here... it's too much to take anymore. Watch me get kicked out of the school for something absolutely stupid... by this point in the year, I'm usually walking on eggshells, desperately trying to get by the rules which are just suffocating me. God. I wish I was in college already.
I hope this entire New York situation works out. It's stressing me out...more than I'd like to admit.
I'm stressing out about my grades this list... I seriously hope they're not gonna plunge downhill drastically. If I don't get into Vassar, life will NOT be good. I will definitely develop manic depression or something. Gotta keep myself motivated!! I hope they get my deposit by the end of today...
So... looks like there's a lot of partying and traveling that's gonna happen this summer. Europe, then Jalynn's coming... and then Phuket, and now possibly Bali. It'll be nice. I miss home so much... I'm so sick of Pennsylvania. So tired of this environment.
The NYSE trip was waaaaaaaay awesome. I want to be one of those people working there. That would make my LIFE. I want to be a workaholic, with a career so intense that I don't have time to go to the bathroom during work hours, that I don't have dinner till 2am. Hahahaha it sounds crazy, but I really think I will thrive in that sort of environment. As long as I don't lose my peace of mind though, you know? Talking to the Hill alumni who're involved in finance was a real eye-opener. Gotta travel, and go for my passions in life, before I end up stuck with a job. Your first job's usually not gonna be the one you'll end up doing for the rest of your life. Keep working at it, and don't feel like just because you're the "gopher", you're not contributing at all. $500 million deals are put together by the "gophers". Not only that, the degree you get from college really isn't going to contribute to your job: in the business world, you learn things on the fly. It's awesome. I love that...because I think that once I expose myself and put myself out there, I'll pick things up a lot more quickly.
~
Current mood: trust me.
Current song: Final Distance - 宇多田光
Current quote: "You're just confusing yourself."
I read Zufar's blog post to my mom. God...why are people just so inconsiderate? So close-minded? So cruel and brutal, blinded by their beliefs? How far away are those people from Brahman? Is there any possible way to bring them back?
The power of now is all there is. I hope he doesn't retaliate, because no violence brings inner peace. I just want him to be happy.
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